| You Don’T Know Who To Blame |
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The reason you are constantly searching is that you have unrealistic expectations, expectations created by our culture and your mind. Yet your mind keeps suggesting that the problem is somewhere outside of you. You waste time trying to alter the outside world. You get new clothing or a new nose, change your spouse and job, but you are still restless and unhappy. As long as you follow this futile strategy, there will always be someone or something else to blame. So you fight with the outside world, which is pointless, because nothing you change in the external world will change who you are. And you live a life of constant struggle, always in strife, always in conflict, never at peace with others, never at peace with yourself. One day you wake up to the grim realization that maybe it is not the outside world that is to blame. You have blamed everything and everybody and things are still not right. And it hits you like a bomb - if the world is not to blame, then it must be you. The blame is transformed into guilt and you waste more time trying to fix yourself. You read books, you take courses, you find a new religion. But at the end of the day, though you may believe otherwise, you are still you, although a sadly unrealized version of you. And eventually you realize that all of your efforts were in vain, because you are still unsatisfied. You don't know who to blame. Fear reigns. Rudderless you are ready to take on anything that will promise to deliver you from your misery. Very soon the ship is sinking, and your entire life is passing you by. This cycle goes on and on, eventually leading to unbearable stress and unhappiness. I've met older people who never escaped the cycle, who still haven't accepted themselves for who they are after a lifelong and futile quest to become someone else. |


